sigh. i feel like crying so bad=( but i'm just holding it back for the moment. i don't think that it has ever gotten this bad. sigh. how fast can a person get over hurt? 10mins? hell no. he was the one who lied to me. gave him chances to admit it himself but no. he rather lie his way thru. he should know me by now, shouldnt he? that whenever i ask " have you ever lied to me? you sure?'' it means i actually know what you've been hiding.

sigh. and now i'm the one who's being unreasonable for being angry and hurt. '' i've already said sorry. what else do you want me to do?'' sigh. i'm just so disappointed that he could ever say such a thing. does a murderer go killing people and aplogize to the grieving families and expect to get away scott-free? of course not. well. thats about the same point. sigh. just his words can hurt me so much. so much the tears are just gonna flow out any moment. our 6th month is in about 2days. but who cares. i'm not in the mood.

i desperately need someone. think i'll go call jin in a minute. sigh. to whom it may concern. the reason why i did not accept your aplogy is coz i gave you chances to admit. but you chose to lie. for days i've been asking you. but you still chose lying. do you know that each time you lied, my heart just rips apart a little more? it's not just one mistake. i'm really disappointed. and i need time to get over the hurt. i dont feel like i know you anymore. not just in this incident but you as a whole person. like you're changing into some stranger. maybe its the true you? maybe you've just simply changed. the daniel i knew wasn't like this. but then again. people change. sigh.