yawn. it has been a long day today. hmm.let's see... what have i forgotten to update? oh yeah! i got my ipod NANO! yippie! it's a birthday present from my dad. was having problems choosing between the white version and the black one. and i finally decided on the black one. why? reason because the white looks so... plain=S. and the contrast of the pictures isn't so good with a white nano. hurr. oh well.

jin dedicated a song to me on radio today! it was our current favourite song! the latest craig david one! haha. but sadly, i didn't get to hear the dedication. why? yeah yeah. the nano was plucked in my ears the whole day. yawn. damn. there's something wrong with my blogskin. hmm. think i'm gonna change it soon. den jin will finally be able to enter my blog. hurhur. and there's something wrong with my iTunes too! sometimes can enter, sometimes can't. urgh! nothing is going right these days.

the service at jalan kayu is terrible! i had to wait close to an hour for my prata today and i almost fainted! the teh tarek man has an attitude problem too. i think the condense milk got to his brain or something. he kept grumbling and took so damn long to do the teh tarek. like 40mins? what did he have to do? personally go milk the cows in new zealand? hurhur. and his teh tasted like water. BLAH! wasted trip down.

i was reading urban this morning and i realised that photoshop really can do wonders! spare tires can be changed to SIX PACKS! and it looked so damn natural! but my mom was more interested in the dresses. i think she was thinking about my prom. haha. i have only like exactly a WEEK to get everything ready. dress.. shoes.. bag.. and where to get the make up and hair done. yawn. oh well. better put those worries back to the Os.

hmm... i haven't spoken to daniel since yesterday morning. oh well. i really can't let this thing hold me down. it's like so damn close to my Os right now. at times when i think about it and feel like crying, i just forced myself to concentrate on the books. and it works. thankfully. do i miss him? oh yeah i do. but the guy didn't even call. pride? face?

oh please. would you rather have face and lose the person you love? not for me. because i did it before and i realised that the one on the losing end is me. not my ex or anyone else. my mom doesn't know what's happening between me and daniel. she's still joking with me about daniel. but i think it's quite obvious because i always stay silent. she will know eventually i think, she's a smart mom.

sigh. i dont know what to do. i really don't. i bet he stil thinks he's right. like he always do. pride again? scared lose face? i don't know. does he ever stop to think how i would feel? i doubt so. because it has always been about him. what he wants to do. what he likes to do. and no one has the right to stop him. he does it his way. i admit. i am stubborn but he is more stubborn. and honestly speaking. it's the first kind i've ever seen. how can we ever click? even compromise doesn't work for him. he would agree and break his promise in a blink of an eye. like i said. i keep my promises. because the trust is way too important to be broken.

he says his friends are worse. but when you say your friends are worse, it doesn't make you any better. why compare with your friends? there are bound to be good guys and bad guys everywhere. not only in your click. sigh. he has changed. no doubt about that. i don't remember him as such an egoistic person. and i don't remember him as someone who will chase his girlfriend away with ego talk.

sigh. well. all i can say is that the old daniel will always be missed. and good luck to the new and deproved daniel. i hope life ahead would be good for him. cheerios.