Baby, you had me at hello.

when u said those words, "it was over the day i came back from new zealand."

i knew i lost you for a long time.
no matter how i tried. how much i cry.
you told me you're happier without me.

it cuts through my heart like a knife.
to know that you can give me up so easily.
you can throw me away.

i thought we complete each other.
we used to be so right.
so perfect that i myself couldn't believe.

i hate you so much for doing things to hurt me.
but at the same time
i can't help but love you still.

i know i'm just being so silly.
typing to myself.
for you'll never read this.
but i had to pour it out.

i missed you so much.
but i hope i will get over it eventually.
like you did.

life has been so different without you.
but its bearable i guess.
i loved you.
and i still do.

i wanna punch myself for saying all these.
for it just makes me feel worse at the end of the day.

i never wanted to lose you.
but i lost you.

i lost you.