A final goodbye

i wish to call you to ask you about your day
to comfort you

i wish to crawl into your bed and scare you awake
like i used to

i wish to soak in the salty waters of sentosa
like we used to.

i wish for you to love me the way you used to
the way you did it, you made me feel like i was the happiest girl on earth.

i wish to hug you and tell you that everything would be normal again
that our love will never end.

but i cant be selfish.
you are begging to be freed.
you'd be much happier like this.

i should have faced the fact a long time ago.
but i chose not to believe.
i always thought that we can make this work.
i always had faith in us.
but i guess i thought wrong.
and ended up feeling worst of all.

i will never forget the great times we had.
the tears we both cried.
the laughter and joy.
goodbye my dear.