sigh. this is really going no where. from the look of his blog just kills all the chances and hopes of us ever getting back together. i have difficulty sleeping. i'm falling sick. i can't let this drag on or i'll just die. i believe the both of us had fault. in some way or another. sigh. i think maybe i'm a little too paraniod with him clubbing. but he never explained about the friendster pictures. he never told me that he posted it there coz it looked nice. but of course. i'm sure he would have something to agrue about there.

he can blog whatever he wants. i don't care anymore. i don't want to take this out on blogs. he can say me whatever he want. but how well does he actually know me? more than my friends? i seriously doubt so. he's good at talking. so much so that sometimes it doesn't even make sense. i will tell casse not to tell me anything about all these anymore. whatever he says to her, will be between him and her. i don't wish to get affected by it further. i'm not even going to go to his blog again. and that is also why i'm taking away the tagboard. it's all draining stuff.

whats the point of all this really.. to get each other more angry? the more we fight about this, the bigger the fire. if he's not tired of this, i am. i for one thing, don't go for the hard approach. but he doesn't know that. why? he doesn't know me well enough. it's a goner if you ever take the hard approach on me. though i'm usually forgivable. it's worse if you ever say fuck off and die. sigh. maybe i really should.

it's amazing how two people so much in love can end up like this. but anything is possible in this world. this is probably my last blog entry on this issue. do i love him? hell i do. but sometimes it just takes more than just love to be together. sigh. oh well. that's it for now. promise that the next entry won't be as gloomy as this one(=