day - flag day. i woke up super late today!!! 7.20am. thank goodness jin was calling my phone like crazy. it woke my sister and she practically shook the whole bed just to get me up to answer the call. haha! it's a saturday. no one was awake to wake me up and i guess i really sleep like a pig on weekends. lol. anyway. i rushed down to point.. which is like.. next to regentville. phew! thank god=) i met jin and cut the queue. hurr. urgh! jin practically told the whole world that i overslept! bleah. fine fine fine. anyway. after we got the stickers and everything.. we decided to go to bugis..

jasmine, xueting and kitty wore their class tees. no fair! their class tees are just soooo niceeee!! it had ''four express two'' in the front. i was wondering whats that.. some kinda coffee? like expresso? hurr. nah it just stands for 4e2.. cool eh? i would have never thought of that! whats more.. its black!!! ahhh! so niceeeeee! *jealous* oh well. hope my class tee would be as nice as theirs. hehehe. that's if.. there's ever gonna be a class tee. sigh. oh well. so it was me, jin. ade, xueting, jas, and kitty. all ex-volleyballers!!! 3 in black. 3 in white! hurr. jasmine was so... ks! we were only at the busstop and she was already asking people to donate! haha! whats worse, when people asked her what they were donating for.. she replied.. for the retarded and senior. haaa! it was actually for the retired and the senior. so someone went off thinking that she had donated to the retarted. haha! aiyohh..

so we took the north-east line all the way to outram. okok. my fault. i was the one who suggested outram when alighting at doby ghaut would have been faster. hehehe. bleah. anyways. we made alot of noise in the mrt i think.. laughing all the way. i forgot what was so funny at that time.. come to think of it.. it wasnt rreally that funny. its just that we all liked laughing and made small things become really huge. haha! it was so nice to be talking to ade again. ever since we got into different class in sec2 and there's no more practice, we never really talked much. hardly saw her and she hardly saw me either. hurr. till now we still haven go jurong point together leh ade! 2 yrs liao!! hehehe. bleah.. one day.. one day we will;)

so the first thing we went when we reached bugis was straight to mac. everyone was soo hungry!!! oooo. at mac, we saw randy and xue yang. heyyyy. come to steal our business! bleah. haha no lah. they were with mark and ya ping. hheee. we slacked and slacked there till like 930. then we set off to collect donations. *sian* its my first time doing it and i realised that its not all boring. there were interesting times as well. just like when i approached an elderly russian couple. they asked what they were donating for and i replied retired and the senior citizens. they went like.''oh! for us!'' haha. embarrassing yes.. but they donated anyway. quite alot actually. they basically digged out all their coins and drop them through the small tiny hole in the bag. grrr. everyone who donated had trouble putting in the money.

i also realised how hard it must be for people to collect donations like that. it's so damn tiring!! and hot too! as we could only do this kinda stuff outside shopping malls and mrts. pathetic loh. hot till siao. urgh. it's also realy frustrating to face people who ignore you. urgh. so this is how people feel when i reject donating. hurr. yawnss. enough about the stupid donations. the people said it was too little. bleah! since you thinkk its so easy you go and collect yourself lah! only know how to scold and say people. bleah. yawn.

er.. im too tired to think of what to blog right now. this entry is so plain and just.. borrrring. hurr. realy sleeping and the crap is taking our my body. yeah i'm dyying. pity me? yes please. hurr. baby i miss you=( why you take so long to come back de!!! sigh. oh well. i'll be waiting still. hurr. yawn. signing off.

yawn. finally. after two suffering weeks... the midyrs are finally over=D hmmm... so what am i gonna do tomorrow? probably meet jin early early in the morning and plan something. harhar. yawn. the poa paper was okay i guess. not as bad as i expected it would be. but there was a killer question. sigh. think i'm gonna lose about 20% of the marks from there. there was a point in time of the exam.. koh meiling was standing right beside me for a whole 5 mins, looking at me while i do my stupid partnership account!! she was just standing there and making weird noises .. getting me all stressed up! crrazzy man. yawn. if i failed poa it wuold be all her fault.. for intruding into my privacy and causing me to suffer stress.. and as a result.. failed the stupid paper. ahaha. oh well. it's over now. dont care. lalalalalala. dammit. i wanted to go swimming tomorrow!! but nah.. got other more important plans i guess. yawn. so happy for myself. i actually dont have to go school tomorrow. unlike poor jas. haha! she's gonna sit for a bio paper which she is wanting to drop. lalalaa.

ahhh! poor joyce. she was chasing after me all the way to point today.. for half the journey to point.. she was actually calling after me but i guess i was just too deaf to hear anything. then finally she caught up with me and hit me hard! oh well i guess i deserved it for being so deaf. haha! i was apologizing all the way to regentville where we both live. it's really nice to walk home with someone who lives sooo near you. haha. she was gonna borrow a bag from me later on but i fell asleep and she didnt have my hixcard number. so she couldnt reach me till now. when i changed back to the starhub sim card. haha. aw man. i really feel so bad=(

i cant believe it. i'm here giving him the ultimate cold shoulder and he still messages me like his smses were free. dammit. what does he want from me huh. i cant stand it sia. yawn. wait till i reach my limit. than he'll know what he's messing with. urgh!! yawn. i'm still so sleepy even after a long nap! haha. hmm... haven been seeing jas and ting around for quite some time now. wonder where they disappeared to.. hmm.. it's always like that during the exam periods. haha. i am hardly able to find anyone. and hardly talk to anyone either. it has always been like.. go school.. sit for paper.. go home. dont even have the mood to stop at point for lunch. heh.

ooo.. jas lent me this diary of a crush look. i haven got time to really look at it yet.. in fact. i haven even thanked her! hehe. what to do.. cannot find her mah. yawn. my sisters finally got their wonderful mp3. yayaya. pampered arses. they just dont know how lucky they are. oh well. haha. hopefully they will wake up someday and realise everything. yup. yawn. i'm soo sleepy.... think i'm gonna be sick soon. yeah. haha. have been falling sick very frequent since the new year started. lalalaa. maybe i'm dying. opps. touch woood. keke. i want the new samsung e720c!!!! it's just so pretty. probably getting it this weekend or something. haha.

sigh. i was looking thruogh all the photos in my phone just now.. a hundred of them. haha. actually i think... if you out all the pictures together... it can tell a story about my life. haha. oh well. yawn. i'm gonna sign off now. ive written so much today! haha. dunno why.. it all just comes out like this. yawn. i must be really bored. ahaha. ahh.. sleepy sleepy me. shit. my sisters haven returned me money! urgh! no money!!! hmm.. hate it when im broke. bleah.



i love my baby(=

wooooot! it's 4.12am right now! hehe. can't really sleep so i'm here now. yup. just updated my friendster profile which got me quite pissed for awhile. but yeah. take it or leave it. i don't really give a damn anymore. bleah!. haha. right now, while blogging.. i'm actually chatting in msn with yuan zhang. yes! it's our class nurse! haha! he's my sitting partner too. *poor me* i'm being tortured by him everyday! with pokes, pinches and hits. *sobbs* anyone pitying me? anyone? haha. grrr! so irritating. he's forever trying to win me in an argument. bleah. don't worry nursey! i wont tell anyone that u actually went for a sex change operation=P you're just such a girl at heart! haha! revenge is gonna be really sweet my dear. wait and see! mUahahahaha! *evil grins* bleah. aiyoh no lah. i'm just crapping throughout. but it's true that he's a nurse! red cross nurse! don't kill meeeeee! *shierks!* can't believe i managed to get through 3 years of being in the same class as him. blah blah blong. urrrgghhh! it's irritating!! i mean.. he's irritating!!!! wish i smack him now!!!! he just said that i... urgh! bleah. i'm gonna sign off now. cant concentrate on so many things at once. haha. hmm.. looking back. this seems like a weird blog entry. oh well. i just needed to vent my frustration. or irritation. or whatever you call it. i'm off. shoo. nothing left to see. shoooo! ahahahaha.

erm. history today sucked. dont wish to talk about it. yup. jin had to share a cab with alex today. they had tuition at her place again. hmm.. it really amazes me how a person can change so much in just a short period of time. alex has become really... hmm.. how should i describe it.. hmm.. oh forget it! he's just not the same alex that i used to know. period. yawns. i crashed to bed the moment i got home. im really praying for the stupid midyrs to be over soon. it's killing meeee. sigh. looking forward to 11 may. finally! slack day! id probably sleep the entire day after my morning dip in the pool with jin(= hmmm.. mothers day is on sunday! hmm.. what should i get eh? think think think. oh well... i'd probably go figure something out with jin on saturday. she keeps saying that her hamster twinkle is fat. haha! of course. like mother like.. ahem.. daughter. ahahaha. im just kidding jin. i think it's because of all the nuts u fed her! bleah. send her to jean yip(= got 50percent off. ahaha.

wheeee. i'm gonna flunk tomorrow's chemistry! lalala. i was looking at the list the teacher gave us and went like.. what the.. i dont even recognise the names of the topics tested. oh well.. i feel like dropping science. but thats just... ridiculous. sigh. really hope i can figure out a way to pass chem before the olevels. tuition would be sucky.. self study... cannot.. i'll go bonkers. sigh. i'm so stressed right now. i feel like i cant handle all these things at once. sigh. maybe i'll continue later eh? yummy dinner.

sigh. chinese sucks. it just sucks! sigh. tomorrow's the prelim and i hardly studies for it. great. just great. sigh. i'm just going nuts today. the fear of losing someone is so.... sigh. cant discribe it. it was almost like history repeating itself. sigh. it's bringing back all the pain i felt when something almost like this (but much worse) happened and urgh. i cant really describe what im feeling now. i've gone warm again. which is a sign that it's bothering me real bad. sigh. feel like crying. but nah. im afraid if i do, i'd never be able to stop. so yeah. maybe it's like what jas calls it. ''heart turning sour and its not a good thing.'' sigh! dammit. urgh . im just gonna whine and whine here. sigh. i have no mood lah. no mood to do anything. hopefully i feel much better tomorrow. dunno what is happening to me. sigh. im just shutting everyone out now. talking to people will make me feel worse. sigh. dammit. urgh. goodness. this is really bad=( urgh. bye.

yawn. i had fun yesterday. it had been a long time since the three of us sat down and goof around like there was no tomorrow. haha! love you guys! (= haha. jasmine ah.... she was vibrating the whole time. just keep laughing and laughing but there's no sound. there were quite a few times when i was wondering whether she was actually crying or laughing. haha. funny. she still wouldnt tell us what happened to her face. alfee said that he ran outta charcoal the day before so he used her instead. haha! oh well. we'll go with that story till she tells us the real one. lala. dont blame me jas=D.. for posting this here. heeheehee. who ask u dont tell me the reason?=p lalala.

xueting! i'd forever remember what happened at the cashier!! bleah! you so meeeeean! switched everything on our trays. haha! but it was really fun. the cashier was like.. staring at us. ha ha. hmm.. she's obsessed with the name ashton now. haha. remember dashton?=P only YOU would have thought of that! haha. and yeah. jasmine's surely gonna vibrate again if she reads this. keep on vibrating dustbin!!! haha! k lah.. dont disturb this jasmine liao. lalala. sigh. i cant study. dont have the mood. and i just cant absorb anything. sigh. fail fail fail again. koh mei ling is gonna kill me so bad if i ever fail her poa. it's really getting tougher and tougher and i just cant hold on to that A1 grade anymore! don't be surprise if i fail. sigh. holiday mooood. yawn.

whee. lonely.... i'm mr lonely... i have nobody..... to call my ownn....... that song is just so cute! haha. whoever hates it should die! lala. kidding lah. bleah. yawn. i miss dan. time really flies eh? so fast it's two months liao. and he's finally coming back. *jumps!* sigh. actually its kinda bothering me how it would turn out. when i meet him and stuff. sigh. yeah. oh well.. i'll take it a day at a time. 11 may no school! yoohoo! i'd probably go down to the pool with jin first thing in the morning. yup yup. hmmm. jas's blog music is really nice. sounds familiar but i cant recall anything. it's like.. really sad. sigh. it can make me cry. it kinda reminds me of the past. when i used to cry seven days a week. looking back. i think it was rather silly of me. it was never gonna work out anyway. i knew it. everyone knew it. since when has it ever did work out? but i guess i just didnt wanna believe. it was all avoiding. sigh. oh well.

hmm.. saw jesse mccartney on teebee earlier this afternoon. he looks fab. ahh! chad michael murray looks alot like justin timberlake now. noot nice=( keep shaving his hair off. dunno whats with him ah.. sigh. you know. there's not much use of this blog actually. coz i dont post everything. sigh. i just cant bring myself to blog everything. yawn. oh well. i'll just ''blog'' the rest on my friends then(= heehee. tata. love you dan(=

sigh. i know im not best. i can never be as smart as them. getting awards like nobody's business. i just cant be that good. that's just me. i just cant study. so why hold it against me? sigh. you're just being baise and fair at all the wrong time. it's pretty obvious and you know it. me keeping quiet doesnt mean i dont know a thing. i know more than you think i do. so please dont underestimate me.

Chariot - Gavin Degraw
Staring at a maple leaf
Leaning on the mother tree
I said to myself we all lost touch
Your favorite fruit is chocolate covered cherries
And seedless watermelon
ohhhh

Nothing from the ground is good enough
Body rised
It puts over me

Oh chariot your golden waves
are walking down upon this face
Oh chariot I'm singing out loud
To guide me
Give me your:
Strength

Remember seeking moons of birth
Rings made mirrors of the earth
The sun was just yellow energy
It is a living promise land
Even over fields of sand
City filled with burden
Cover meFrom bringing back
More than a memory

Oh chariot your golden waves
are walking down upon this face
Oh chariot I'm singing out loud
To guide me
Give me your:
Strength

You'll be my vacation away
from this place
You know what I want
Holding that cup,
It's pouring over the sides
Make me wanna spread my arms and fly

Oh chariot your golden waves
are walking down upon this face
Oh chariot I'm singing out loud
To guide me
Give me your:
Strength