sigh. i feel like crying so bad=( but i'm just holding it back for the moment. i don't think that it has ever gotten this bad. sigh. how fast can a person get over hurt? 10mins? hell no. he was the one who lied to me. gave him chances to admit it himself but no. he rather lie his way thru. he should know me by now, shouldnt he? that whenever i ask " have you ever lied to me? you sure?'' it means i actually know what you've been hiding.

sigh. and now i'm the one who's being unreasonable for being angry and hurt. '' i've already said sorry. what else do you want me to do?'' sigh. i'm just so disappointed that he could ever say such a thing. does a murderer go killing people and aplogize to the grieving families and expect to get away scott-free? of course not. well. thats about the same point. sigh. just his words can hurt me so much. so much the tears are just gonna flow out any moment. our 6th month is in about 2days. but who cares. i'm not in the mood.

i desperately need someone. think i'll go call jin in a minute. sigh. to whom it may concern. the reason why i did not accept your aplogy is coz i gave you chances to admit. but you chose to lie. for days i've been asking you. but you still chose lying. do you know that each time you lied, my heart just rips apart a little more? it's not just one mistake. i'm really disappointed. and i need time to get over the hurt. i dont feel like i know you anymore. not just in this incident but you as a whole person. like you're changing into some stranger. maybe its the true you? maybe you've just simply changed. the daniel i knew wasn't like this. but then again. people change. sigh.

tuesday. whee.

break you - marion raven

I was your girl, gave you my world
My everything
But you wouldn't see

I had your back
I backed you up
whatever I did
was never enough

Just you... you
That's all you ever thought about
You... you
No one matters like you do
what goes around comes around
You should know by now

[Chorus :]
Bet you never thought that I could break you
Did you think that i would look the other way
Yeah you had it all figured out
But tell me who's the one who's crying now

The palm of your hand, that was your plan
gave me no time but now you want mine
It's all about take you took too much
Nothing inside I'm all used up

Come on

You... you
Nothing else matters like
You do
You know what I'm talkin' 'bout
Don't you
what goes around comes around
You should know by now

[Chorus]

All your one night stands ( should've thought about that )
Says she's just a friend ( should've thought about that )
Are you satisfied now' ( should've thought about that )
cause you can't hold me down

Not now I wanna thank you 'cause now I'm free
I can breath again and I'm never going back to you

[Chorus]
Bet you never thought that I could break you
( Bet you never thought that I could break you )
Did you think that i would look the other way
yeah you had it all figured out
But tell me who's the one who's crying now

end of me - marion raven

Hey Stay with me
As I'm getting naked
Stripped down to the bone

Hey
I'm afraid
This could get ugly
And I might leave here alone

This is not a mistake
it's the dawn of a new day
Anything goes from now

[chorus]
This is the last of illusions
This is the final trace of innocence
If I'm caught in the middle I
know it will be the end of me

Hey
Talk to me
Don't play me with your silence
Whisper it in my mouth

Cause this is not about hate
It's the start of a new wave
Anything goes from now

[Chorus]

This is not a mistake
the dawn of a new day
this is not a mistake

Hey
Stay with me

Hey
Stay with me
As I'm getting naked

This is the last of illusions
This is the final trace of innocence
If I'm caught in the middle
I know it will be
It's the last of illusions
This is the final trace of innocence
If I'm caught in the middle
I know it will be
The end of me

Hey Yeah...

biatch