Common Test

fook. i have a math test later on at 4.30pm. i think im getting the exam chills once again. damn it feels like Olevels all over again though its just one stupid test. urgh. i'm dumb.

I've been tagged.

1. Do the following without any complains.
2. Choose 5 persons to do this after you complete yours.
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged.
4. Start your post with " I have been tagged!" then do this.

well. i've been tagged by Gene the meanie.

Favourites
Colour: baby blue, black.
Food: carrot cake. yum! it's an all time favourite:)
Song: From this moment - Shania Twain... oh my god this song is simply lovely
Movie: How to lose a guy in 10 days.
Sport: Swimming, badminton.
Ice Cream: Mag Nut.

Currents
Mood: Tired. just came home.
Taste: Sweet. from the ice lemon tea i earlier.
Clothes: Shirt and shorts.
Desktop: huh?
Toenail colour: eh. i haven did my nails in ages. heh
Time:11.39pm
Surroundings: in the hall watching mtv with my laptop on well... my lap.
Annoyances: dry eyes. messy hair. tired body.
Thoughts: about how comfy i would be in bed.

Firsts
First Bestfriends:
Kindergarden: eh. i forgot.
Primary School: this pair of twins... jacqueline and cynthia
Secondary School: jas, jin, xueting.
Poly: sofiah & fizah :P
Crush: er. i forgot his name.
Movie: Cinderella? Snow White? yup. must be one of that.
Lie: eh..... eh..... no idea?
Song: The ABC song.

Lasts
Cigarette: Never had one. and never will.
Drink: Ice lemon tea. Yummy:)
Car ride: it's been awhile...
Crush: it's been awhile...
Phone Call: from daniel asking me to call him back
CD Played: i think it's been 3 years since i listened to one.

Have You Ever
Dated one of your best friends: like seriously, that is just wrong.
Broken the law: well. i think i stole an eraser when i was 5?
Been arrested: never. but it would be cool to have :D kidding.
Been on TV: not that i can remember...
5 things you are wearing: Glasses, shirt, shorts, bracelet, necklace
4 things you did today: work, eat dinner, movie, shit.
3 things you can hear right now: music from itunes, tv, cellphone ringtone.
1 thing you do when you're bored: watch tv.

i tag...
Amanda
Fizah
Daniel
Jas the lizard
Jin

MISSING PUPPY!

Untitled...

today was fugly. why? because i didnt get enough sleep! had this rehearsal for the milkrun in the wee hours today and that got me kinda crappy. but after seeing fizah and yong liang, it was all forgotten. for i know we would have fun. we had to dance along to 2 songs. one was a dumb chingay techno song with a really speedy tempo. the other was a really really nice remix of the beauty and the beast theme song.


i was rather bored at some point.


really really bored.........


fizah and me.


urgh! every single time i wanna take a close up picture of him, this is what i get!!!


the filthy thing behind me.


ha! got your face! FINALLY!


my head is not big enough to cover the filthy thing behind me.

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it's somewhat offical. we're over. i guess this is best for the both of us. the endless fights... endless tears... and the neverending hurtful words.. somehow, i know that this would be over someday. but i still hung on for the sake of love.

i know i loved him terribily. and that's why it's gonna be painful for this period of time. for i know, that long term, it will do me good. and i will be able to stand up again like i always have.

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To my dear baby:

don't take it as the end. take it as the start of a new life. take it as freedom, because i know you want it so bad. you're not used to people caring for you, and thats why u mistaken my care for nuisance. you are used to having things done your way and you have no room left for any changes. i took my friend's advise and tried to make this work with a heart-to-heart talk with you.

but you always took it negative and once again, misunderstood my intentions even though i made it clear that i was trying to make this work. and that's when i realised, my heart is not with you anymore. i hope you will find your happiness. as obviously it's not with me. neither is mine with you. i wish you well my love. goodbye.

It's what you did thats hurting you.

when i first got on the laptop, my main intention was to blog. but i found that i couldn't put my feelings into words. i am offically emotionally choked. for the record, i've never been as blank as i am now whenever i'm about to blog. for starters, i'm in pain. humongous pain. Love brings the greatest pain than anything in the entire world.

i'm a fragile person. if you try to say things with the intention of hurt me, you will always succeed at it. but these few days, although i'm being dumped again, i did not react as strongly as i thought i would. for 4 days i did not shed a single tear for him. i've been numb to all the hurtful things he say.

all the FUCK OFFS, all the swearing at me... has just made me really numb. i look at sofiah and glandyn and realised how cute and loving they were together. jasmine and melvin are no different. we used to be like that... i think about they days when it was a lovely one with movie and sakae sushi.

the lovely and innocent times started to disappear from the time he start lying to me.. went clubbing behind my back... and even picked up smoking for awhile... all at once was too much for me to handle. i dont adapt well to negative changes as i always think the best of them. little would i know it turned around and smack me in the head. like which girl would like their boyfriend to go clubbing without them? but he will never understand this.

So here i am, hugging Puppy the humongous stuffed doggie he gave me for valentines day. knowing that this is the last of him i'll ever get. we have no reason to get back together anymore. he doesnt need me, i'm just preoccupying his time. i dont have his respect either, whatever i say always goes down the drain.

though i love and miss him so much, i know it'll never ever be the same again. i've lost the old daniel.all thats left are the memories he left behind.

First i got a swollen, then i die

HELP! the bottom of my left eye is getting swollen my the minute! its like bruised but i can't find where's the bruise. weird huh. yawn. well. it's been a rather busy day. and so will the following month. with school projects.. work.. and being a student leader for the upcoming MilkRun isnt really helping either.

OUCH! the awollen is getting worse! i better go. maybe this laptop screen is too small after all. LOL.