The Big Mistake

YAWN! shopping in HEELS is a BIG mistake! my feet hurt so much i couldnt even walk to the bus stop to take a bus home. instead, i took the easy way out. i flagged a cab. heh heh. it was pricy but worth it :) and i bought my prom dress! haha. after the whole day of shopping. i finally settled on the dress which i had seen last week. my dad had picked it out for me. and he just asked me to try it on. i did and stubborn me wanted to look for others. but.. yeah. bg mistake. it only led to aching feet and worn out heels. haha.

my sisters' PLSE results came out today. hurr. kelly got 256 and karyn, 257. TWINS. same face. same height (almost). same bimbotic slangs. same room. same interests. same friends. same egg. and now. same results! they came in one after another in positions. haha. top 10% of the whole singapore.they qualified for the special stream and are elegible to take up a third language. yawn. makes me feel really lousy somehow. i mean. i never took the PSLE. i could have. but it was just useless. i could do nuts with it. and even if i did took the PSLE, i wouldnt be as good as them. hurr. thats the truth.

yawn. to make things worse, i'm worried for my O Level results. what happens if i dont make it (which i really dont think i would)? sigh. oh well. i'll just worry on getting a job right now. hurr hurr. my nails are super long. i just did my nails and i think they look like claws. haha. oh well. everyone should adapt to that. not the other way round. har har har:)

The Catch Up Entry

wheeee. heh. i know i know. i haven't been blogging for like.. ages! why?? i dunno. simply too lazy for a while. heh heh. whee. the Os are over!!! time to PLAY! haha. actually. it's time for serious shopping. news flash. prom is in less than a week! i MUST get something tomorrow. be it earrings or THE DRESS. yawn. i'm so tired. my sisters' PSLE results are coming out tomorrow. and my mom is going bonkers. heh heh. i've gotta settle all my meals again. yawn. im going so broke! boohoohoo. anyone wanna donate to the poor? you're doing a good deed ya know.

yawn. anyway. just to update. yeah. i'm 16 already. old news. it's not that a big deal once you have waited for so damn long. like a year. before you reach 16 and when that special day comes. it's just not as fantastic as you expected it to be. hurr. oh well. jin's away on boot camp. boohoo. ahahhaa. nah. it's actually slack camp. which i chose not to go. because i can't stand to waste my slack days in SCHOOL of all places. heh heh.

anyway. i got to go. ahahhaha. phone call ;)

Bloody Sunday

yawn. it's a sunday. another 8 more days to my birthday! whee. hurr. i hate being a november baby. everyone's 16 while i'm ALMOST 16. hurhur. yawn. i'm currently listening to the pussycat dolls - stick with you. why do they need so many girls to sing a song like that?? i think one of them is enough to bring the song to the top charts. heh hehh. yawn. i better get going. heh. history's waiting for me. yawn. borrring.

Subject: Funny Letter From India

My dear Jagjit,

I am in a well here and hoping you are also in a well there. I'm writing this letter slowly, because I know you cannot read fast.We are not living where we did when you left home. Your dad read in the newspaper that most accidents happen 20 miles from home, so we moved 20miles.I am not able to send the address, as the last Sardar who stayed here took the house numbers with them for their new house so they would not have to change their address.

Hopefully by next week we will be able to take our earlier address plate here, and that our address will remain same too.This place is really nice. It even has a washing machine, situated right above the toilet. But I'm not sure it works too well. Last week I put in 3 shirts, pulled the chain, and haven't seen them since.

The weather here isn't too bad. It rained only twice last week. The first time it rained for 3 days and second time for 4 days.The coat you wanted me to send you, your Aunt said it would be a little too heavy to send in the mail with all the metal buttons, so we cut them off and put them in the pocket.

Your father has another job. He has 500 men under him. He is cutting the grass at the cemetery.By the way, I took Bahu to our club's poolside. The manager is Badmash.He told her that two piece swimming suit is not allowed in his club. We were confused as to which piece we should remove?

Your sister had a baby this morning. I haven't found out whether it is a girl or a boy, so I don't know whether you are an Aunt or Uncle.Your uncle, Jetinder fell in the nearby well. Some men tried to pull him out, but he fought them off bravely and drowned. We cremated him and he burned for three days.

Your best friend, Balwinder, is no more. He died trying to fulfill his father's last wishes. His father had wished to be buried in the sea after he died. And your friend died while in the process of digging a grave for his father.There isn't much more news this time. Nothing much has happened.

Love,
Mom.

P.S : Jagjit, I was going to send you some money but by the time I realized,I had already sealed off this letter.

Rather good mood.

hehehe! i changed the skin of my blog! so jin? you can finally enter my blog. i hope. haha. yawn. it took me the whole night to get this done. because i was fussy. i wanted a plain black skin. but couldn't find. so finally i decided to settle for something close. like this! i saw a lime green and black one. like so cool!!! but nah. the whole skin is out of proportion. so it looks... weird.. haha. yawn. i'm so tired. i barely slept yesterday. when i finally got to the bed, it was 4 in the morning. and woke up around 730.

and yeah. i didn't even know that the prom night website is still there. you can go check it out. it's on one of my links. there's a picture and bitch-face is not even inside! hahhaa. good for her. she was busy hiding behind her sister that day. hahaha. like a typical coward. yawn. guessed they've finally settled on a theme. smart casual. why not gowns! then we can all go as cinderella in huge puffy gowns. hehehe.

three days to the freaking Os! Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! so scary. help help! i need someone to calm me down. like seriously! hurr hurr. maybe studying will calm me down. ahh. yes yes. hehehe. oh well. i better go. yawn. i'm in such a good mood today. i don't know why. hurhur. weird stuff happen sometimes. tata.

Facts that many do not know:

1. Coca-Cola was originally green.
2. The most common name in the world is Mohammed.
3. The name of all the continents end with the same letter that they start with.
4. The strongest muscle in the body is the tongue.
5. There are two credit cards for every person in the United States.
6. TYPEWRITER is the longest word that can be made using the letters only on one row of the keyboard.
7. Women blink nearly twice as much as men!
8. You can't kill yourself by holding your breath..
9. It is impossible to lick your elbow.
10. People say "Bless you" when you sneeze because when you sneeze, your heart stops for a millisecond.
11. It is physically impossible for pigs to look up into the sky.
12. The "sixth sick sheik's sixth sheep's sick" is said to be the toughest tongue twister in the English language.
13. If you sneeze too hard, you can fracture a rib. If you try to suppress a sneeze, you can rupture a blood vessel in your head or neck and die.
14. Each king in a deck of playing cards represents great king from history. Spades - King David Clubs - Alexander the Great, Hearts - Charlemagne Diamonds - Julius Caesar.
15. 111,111,111 x 111,111,111 = 12,345,678,987,654,321
16. If a statue of a person in the park on a horse has both front legs in the air, the person died in battle. If the horse has one front leg in the air, the person died as a result of wounds received in battle. If the horse has a all four legs on the ground, the person died of natural causes.
17. What do bullet proof vests, fire escapes, windshield wipers and laser printers all have in common? Ans. - All invented by women.
18. Question - This is the only food that doesn't spoil. What is this? Ans. -Honey
19. A crocodile cannot stick its tongue out.
20. A snail can sleep for three years.
21. All polar bears are left handed.
22. American Airlines saved $40,000 in 1987 by eliminating one olive from each salad served in first-class.
23. Butterflies taste with their feet.
24. Elephants are the only animals that can't jump.
25. In the last 4000 years, no new animals have been domesticated.
26. On average, people fear spiders more than they do death.
27. Shakespeare invented the word 'assassination' and 'bump'.
28. Stewardesses is the longest word typed with only the left hand.
29. The ant always falls over on its right side when intoxicated.
30. The electric chair was invented by a dentist.
31. The human heart creates enough pressure when it pumps out to the body to squirt blood 30 feet.
32. Rats multiply so quickly that in 18 months, two rats could have over million descendants.
33. Wearing headphones for just an hour will increase the bacteria in your ear by 700 times.
34. The cigarette lighter was invented before the match.
35. Most lipstick contains fish scales.
36. Like fingerprints, everyone's tongue print is different.

yawn. it has been a long day today. hmm.let's see... what have i forgotten to update? oh yeah! i got my ipod NANO! yippie! it's a birthday present from my dad. was having problems choosing between the white version and the black one. and i finally decided on the black one. why? reason because the white looks so... plain=S. and the contrast of the pictures isn't so good with a white nano. hurr. oh well.

jin dedicated a song to me on radio today! it was our current favourite song! the latest craig david one! haha. but sadly, i didn't get to hear the dedication. why? yeah yeah. the nano was plucked in my ears the whole day. yawn. damn. there's something wrong with my blogskin. hmm. think i'm gonna change it soon. den jin will finally be able to enter my blog. hurhur. and there's something wrong with my iTunes too! sometimes can enter, sometimes can't. urgh! nothing is going right these days.

the service at jalan kayu is terrible! i had to wait close to an hour for my prata today and i almost fainted! the teh tarek man has an attitude problem too. i think the condense milk got to his brain or something. he kept grumbling and took so damn long to do the teh tarek. like 40mins? what did he have to do? personally go milk the cows in new zealand? hurhur. and his teh tasted like water. BLAH! wasted trip down.

i was reading urban this morning and i realised that photoshop really can do wonders! spare tires can be changed to SIX PACKS! and it looked so damn natural! but my mom was more interested in the dresses. i think she was thinking about my prom. haha. i have only like exactly a WEEK to get everything ready. dress.. shoes.. bag.. and where to get the make up and hair done. yawn. oh well. better put those worries back to the Os.

hmm... i haven't spoken to daniel since yesterday morning. oh well. i really can't let this thing hold me down. it's like so damn close to my Os right now. at times when i think about it and feel like crying, i just forced myself to concentrate on the books. and it works. thankfully. do i miss him? oh yeah i do. but the guy didn't even call. pride? face?

oh please. would you rather have face and lose the person you love? not for me. because i did it before and i realised that the one on the losing end is me. not my ex or anyone else. my mom doesn't know what's happening between me and daniel. she's still joking with me about daniel. but i think it's quite obvious because i always stay silent. she will know eventually i think, she's a smart mom.

sigh. i dont know what to do. i really don't. i bet he stil thinks he's right. like he always do. pride again? scared lose face? i don't know. does he ever stop to think how i would feel? i doubt so. because it has always been about him. what he wants to do. what he likes to do. and no one has the right to stop him. he does it his way. i admit. i am stubborn but he is more stubborn. and honestly speaking. it's the first kind i've ever seen. how can we ever click? even compromise doesn't work for him. he would agree and break his promise in a blink of an eye. like i said. i keep my promises. because the trust is way too important to be broken.

he says his friends are worse. but when you say your friends are worse, it doesn't make you any better. why compare with your friends? there are bound to be good guys and bad guys everywhere. not only in your click. sigh. he has changed. no doubt about that. i don't remember him as such an egoistic person. and i don't remember him as someone who will chase his girlfriend away with ego talk.

sigh. well. all i can say is that the old daniel will always be missed. and good luck to the new and deproved daniel. i hope life ahead would be good for him. cheerios.

that song by craig david is my current craze! heehee. his voice is just sooooo smooth. yawn. finally. i feel abit better now. though my eyes are shit sore from all that crying. the one who brought me the most joy is also the one who brought me the most pain.

whatever i do is never enough. you know what. i heck care. i'm not gonna restrict myself from saying what i really feel so as not to hurt feelings. i've had enough of tolerating this. daniel i mean. i feel a great deal of pressure from my mom. she feels sad for me. why? because she can fore see that me and daniel will not have a happy life together. she even ask me to dump him as soon as possible if not i will suffer.

that annoys me at times. but i never took her words and dump him just like that. i ignored her like she was babbling crap. but now i start to think back. from the way he always puts on his i-want-my-face attitude, it is never gonna work out. furthermore. i dont trust him. seriously and sadly speaking. i still really don't. and he on the other hand never even put in effort to show that i can trust him.

when i asked him to cut down clubbing to two times per month, he agreed to it. and even when i realised that he was going for the third time in a month, i never said anything. but now when he went clubbing for the fourth time this month, he told me only when he was in the club. and i had to ask him where he was. sigh. why i don't like him to club so much? he should know that very well. just ask him yourself. i dont wish to post what he did to the whole world.

i realised that even my american friends visit my blog. hurr. hi guys. anyway. he wants me to listen to him. that i cant go clubbing without him. fine. i already asked him if after prom he's free, so we can go wherever together. i will keep to my promise, especially promises to my boyfriend. because i know how delicate the trust can be. once you lose it, it's hard to ever get it back.

i would listen to him and do what he says. but does he? do i even matter to him? does my words matter to him? he has proved it time and again that whatever i say wouldnt make a difference in hid decisions. i feel like i'm just there for him to have and to hold like a stuffed toy. am i suppose to feel this way? i seriously doubt so. what hurts me the most is that he doesn't even bother to gain back my trust. like it was never important to begin with.

he probably think that i'm fine with everything. but the truth is, i'm not. sometimes i would cry myself to sleep uncertain how things would be and why did he wanna lose my trust. i suffer you know. who's the fucker feeling insecure? me. who's the fucker having to deal with the Olevel at the same time? me. who's the fucker whose dad is leaving for a bombed country? me. and who's the one feeling like she has the whole world on her shoulders? it's still me...

sigh. but does he care? no. he just adds on to my load. so what if i love him. can love overcome all obstacles? i doubt so. can you have love but no water or food? no. sigh. i have no idea what i should do. i'll be really frank here. i've never met a guy behaving so much like a girl ever. well. minus zr. the attitudes he give are so girl-like. reminds me of what my sisters would give. but he has his attitude to thank after all. he finally managed to drive me off a cliff and get rid of me. he got what he wanted. so congrats to him. i've hit my limit for the first time in a very long while and it has never felt better.

Don't Love You No More(I'm sorry) - craig david

[VERSE 1]
For all the years that I've known you baby
I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold
(didn't you say)
If there's a problem we should work it out
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl
(tell me)
Ok I know I was late again I made you mad
and then it's throwing the pan
But why are you making this drag on so long
(i wanna know)
I'm sick and tired of this silly games
(silly games)
Don't figure that I'm the only one here to blame
It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

[CHORUS]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

[VERSE 2]
I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I'm missing something now that your gone
(I see it all so clearly)
Me at the door with you inner state
(inner state)
Giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

[CHORUS]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

[BRIDGE]
Don't say those words it's so hard
They turn my whole world upside down
Girl you caught me completely off guard
On the night you said to me
I just don't love you more.

[CHORUS 2X]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more